Trust Without Understanding

I think often times we match trust with understanding. The more understanding we have, the more we trust. I think no matter what, the more understanding we have about a person, a situation, etc, the more we trust. This, I believe is a more modern thing, I don't believe it was created to be this way. The reason it is this way is because of the hurt we have all experienced as a consequence of trust. When you put your trust in someone or something of this world, it will fail, it will disappoint, it will not reach that expectation, it will let down, your trust in it will shrink. This world is corrupted, it's sinful, broken. Therefore, if you put your trust in broken things, things that are imperfect, and flawed, you receive broken, flawed, imperfect results. When we let our walls down, they end up being built up even higher the next time, due to the hurt that was caused when we let them down. As the trend continues, we end up with walls built so high, so strong, so sturdy, people can't get in, no one can get in, even the people we need to be in. Trust can hurt, but trust can also heal. Trusting isn't easy, it's scary, because what if you get hurt, what if you're let down, what if you're trusting the wrong person, or thing? To trust is to be bold, but after too many times of experiencing the pain of trust breaking, we stop desiring to be bold. We start hiding behind our walls.

When we build our walls, when we trust and it gets broken, we not only push other people from coming in, we push God outside of the wall as well. We get so caught up in the world and in our pain of our trust being broken, that we tend to associate God with the world. Here's what I mean, when our trust is broken, we struggle to trust anyone anymore, and because the action of trusting hurt us, we are afraid to trust again. That fear in us of being hurt again by trusting others or other things can stop us from trusting God. Our first thought is not to distinguish between trusting in things of this world/people of this world and trusting in God. No, our first thought is, I trusted them/that, and they broke it, it hurt, I'm hurt. And instinctively, we build our wall, we push people away, and we include God in one we push away. We categorize Him as "He's just like everybody else," maybe not intentionally, but we do it.

"When I trust you, I don't need to understand."- Hillsong Worship, New Wine

We don't need to understand to trust Him. In fact, trust is supposed to be blind, it's supposed to be bold. As we understand, trust in Him shouldn't expand, we should trust in Him DESPITE our understanding, despite our knowledge, despite our circumstance, despite any unprecedented times. Our trust in Him should not rely on our understanding or how much we know, it should rely on Him. Trust is to rely on, to be confident in that person/thing. To trust is to surrender, is to be vulnerable, to let go, and that's what is scary about it, you're unarmed, you're fully you, the wall is down, you let people in, now the question is, "are the people you let in trustworthy?" Maybe for the time being, but they will disappoint, fail, and hurt you, they are human, they are apart of this world, just as you are. But God, He is perfect, the One who succeeds where we fail, He heals where we hurt. He is different, trusting in Him is different. So when your trust is broken, know that God won't break it. As I said before, trust can heal, it can fix, it can be beautiful. When one person breaks it, let other people come in, let God enter in, He heals, He fixes, He shows us that beauty can come from places that were at one point ugly, at one point hurting, at one point seemingly unfixable. If you never trusted ever again, because of it being broken, who would you have in your life? You'd have you, but eventually you'd realize that even your own self cannot be trusted. When we trust in ourselves more than God, when we push Him and everyone else outside our wall, we are still left with a broken, flawed, imperfect thing, ourselves. I know people have broken your trust, I know it hurt/hurts, I know it isn't easy, I know it's hard to let people in again. But let Him in, let in those who He has placed in your life to help you, He can't help you when you've pushed Him away. Instead of pushing Him away, try running to Him, try trusting in Him even more. Be bold, let people in, let trust heal, let trust fix, and mend, let God remind you of what true trust is. Trust is beautiful, even if people break it, trust holds beauty. If God has never let us down, why measure our trust in Him based on how other people treat our trust? If you used 10 buckets to hold water, but one had a crack, and was unable to hold the water, would you not trust any of the other 9 buckets? Would you throw away the other 9? No, you'd use the other 9, trusty buckets you had. You wouldn't punish the other 9 buckets, just because one bucket failed you. You shouldn't punish the people who are trustworthy, especially God who is most trustworthy, just because someone else broke your trust. So, I encourage you to trust God, even when you don't understand, trust Him even when you're hurt, trust Him even when its broken, because what is broken, He will restore. He can't fix it if you never bring it to Him to fix.